December 1st, 2020

Honestly, I aspire to be remarkable. I want to be known. I want to be awarded. I want to have impressive titles.

Of course, I do not do what I do for the accolades. Of course I don't. But I also cannot pretend like the achievements and recognition are things that I don't want.

Right now, I am at the beginning. There is so much work to be done. I have barely dented the surface. And ultimatley it isn't about me. Nothing I do is for me. I share myself as a resource. I am what I have to offer. But I, alone, am not enough.

I want to serve in a larger, more meaningful way. I want my own story to be a starting point, not the finale.

The thing is that I think I will get those accolades one day. I think that based on my career trajectory, it certainly is not out of the question.

I know the best thing to do right now is support, listen, and admire. Saying it should be me is arrogant, pre-mature, and honestly just stupid and entitled. Everyone who is awarded anything deserves it. At least in the context to which I am referring.

What I am saying is that I, too, hope that I deserve it one day. And I think that I will. And thinking that I will is for me to know now and the rest of the world to know when they see my name in Seventeen, Teen Vogue, and Forbes.

For now, and always—post accolades—my duty is to listen, support, and serve.

My time will come.