it has been 2 years

i feel you harder than i normally do

i always feel you but now it is more tangible

i am getting memories that feel so vivid they could’ve been yesterday

2 years

365 days twice

10 + 120 + 600 = 730 days

i’m sitting at a table in the milstein center

the milstein center at barnard college

i finished my first year of college

do you know that this is where i ended up?

i wish we could’ve talked about it together

i wish we could’ve wanted me to go here together

i don’t think we had a single conversation where we talked about me going to barnard

when we last spoke i wanted to go to yale

i wanted to be an astrophysicist

i was dating a boy